it's the simple things..

Abba, I'm so thankful for you today and always. The way you romance my heart with something as simple as a beautiful sunrise over the volcano as I do my two step dance with you, running along the ocean. The rhythm of my steps sometimes feels as though it's Your own heart beating through me. Today I choose an attitude of gratitude and thanksgiving for what You have done in my life, and most of all because You are worthy of it all. You give me strength when I have none. You show me what it means to be a woman of integrity and live with a holy fear over my life. You've shown me the importance of self-control and dying to my flesh every single day. I know that words carry weight to them and life and death lie in the power of the tongue. It cannot be tamed but out of the overflow of the heart, my mouth speaks. I represent you with joy and honor so let that permeate throughout my entire life. Let it be one that is pleasing to You. Fill me up God with more of you. I surrender my heart to you and transform it into a heart that knows your heartbeat for life, beauty, justice, and peace. I want to be marked by prayer and being in Your word. That I will know your character so well that I can bank on who you say you are, Father. I thank you again for this time in Hawaii and how captivating You are, how intricate Your work is. You are the pulse of my heart and I choose to be led by the voice of the Holy Spirit as today will be the day that I love You the least. 

"I will proclaim with the voice of thanksgiving and declare all your wonders. I will bless the Lord at all times and let His praise continually be on my mouth." -A lesson from the life of David in the Psalms :) 

Prophetic Words

How I've enjoyed this time in Hawaii being with some of my best friends JR and Ashley Bagwell before heading home. It's been such a joy and makes my heart smile thinking about all of the adventures and journeys we have yet to experience together as we sit in the "glory room" (bed room) casting vision together. It's such a blessing to have them in my life and do this walk with Jesus together. We were praying for each other the other night and the  Lord gave us some words over each other and for encouragement in this season to come. These were some of the ones that were prayed over me:

Plowing the soil of your heart: making my heart soft in this season of preparation and expectancy to hear God's word resulting in growth

Train going around a mountain: Not sure about the destiny I'm going, all I know is that I'm on a one way track and that's my life led by my Abba. A train is a large ministry influencing many people and mountain is a place of revelation or meeting with God or God's glory

Sky: high things of God in the spirit 

   -in the sky was clouds, a door, a lion, northern lights, me in scrubs

Clouds: heavenly manifestation, glory presence of God

Lion: conquering nature of Jesus, powerful spirit

Door: an opening, the way, possibility, grace through Jesus

Nursing: healing anointing, caring service and minister gift

The Lord also spoke to never forget the "seasons of life" we walk through. Be sensitive to transition and changes. While I was praying yesterday, Holy Spirit gave me a picture of a big, green, full tree, and said "I'm growing you into this big tree but I'm also pruning you and leaving branches here in Kona. It has been a major time of grown and going to new depths but you will not produce fruit until you go home. Just continue to abide in the fullness of Me and the fullness of you in Me."

I'm so excited for the things in store back home and I'm so thankful that I do not have to know my plans because God does. Sometimes it feels overwhelming, but at the same time I think God doesn't reveal certain things to us because they're too big to comprehend. It's a walk of grace and trust and the journey with Jesus I wouldn't trade for the world...just something to sacrifice my life for. 

"I give it all to you God, trusting that You'll make something beautiful out of me." 

Power of Fasting

I'm learning that fasting and praying is the most powerful spiritual combinations of things a Christian can possibly do. Coming back from another country and into a life full of entertainment and distractions it's so easy to remove focus from the thing we should value most in our lives. I had to separate myself from something or remove it completely to replace it with more God. For more breakthrough, more depth in the spirit, revelations, and being in tune with what God is speaking into my life during this season. It's a time of a lot of transition and excitement; a new chapter.

I want to be so willing to sacrifice something for something better, to pray to win something over for God's kingdom. It's not about twisting His arm but I just had an urgency in my spirit to realign my heart with God and for Him to reveal anything that needed correction in order to fulfill the purpose He has for my life. A divine calling for something requires a divine preparation of prayer. We cannot lose the power of prayer by trying to do things on our own accord. We must tap into the power of Jesus to move angels and demons. It starts in the spiritual, then moves to the physical. 

So many things have happened in the physical as well as the spiritual over this last week and I credit it all to these powerful tools and the power of God. My purpose was to seek the face, mind, and heart of God to reveal things through consecration. To go deeper in my prayer life through intimacy with Jesus and denying the flesh from instant gratification of food. Practical lessons I'm learning are patience, humility, self-denial, perseverance and increased focus. I want focus on God. There are so many things in this world that are battling for our souls and affections, including food. Through fasting it helps me tune into God's voice, conviction of the Holy Spirit, and making me a catalyst for awakening and revival. 

God has given me so much vision for this summer back in Glendive and things happening in the church, youth, and community as a whole. I'm so excited to go home and build relationships and invest in people, serve like Jesus. To know that this season is to go about the Father's business. It's going to be a time of revival of the heart, reformation of the lifestyle. I can't waiiittt!! :)

Pursuing Truth

The truth penetrates deep...if you allow it to. But, it is also one of the most questioned things in today's society. What is truth? It all comes back to what worldview and perspective you have. Some have definitions from a communism perspective, some secular humanism, but when the world and our culture is viewed through the lens and grid of the truth of the Bible, everything becomes much more clear. People want questions answered. Where did I come from, how did the universe come about, where is everything going, and truth determines the answers to all the previous questions. 

TRUTH: PROPER DESCRIPTION OF REALITY AS GOD SEES IT BECAUSE HE CREATED IT

 Ideas have consequences and the actions we follow through with are determined solely on what we believe. Belief, worldview, and value systems manifest into decisions in everything we do in life. God is bigger than our ability to comprehend things and stands outside of time. Because there is no beginning or end to my infinite Father, all things began with Him. Evolution and Big Bang are valuable arguments but both are a result of a yet undiscovered cause. The things that come with a belief system are all focused around if there is a God or not. Say there isn't a God...then humans are just simply DNA, chemicals, who are 'essentially good'. Then comes the question...what is 'good'? There is no moral lawgiver, no God to determine the standard. So many people will say truth is relative and everything is founded on having faith in reason. This limits everything to only what man can think and comprehend. Biblical truth rests on divine revelation, through biblical scriptures, both reason and intuition are guided by revelation. 

Truth exists and is knowable because God has revealed it. Reason is necessary to comprehend this divine revelation but our beliefs can't rest only on reason. To claim there is no God is a moral deficit. Men have forgotten God, that's why our world is coming to what it's coming to. There is "no deity" therefore, we must save ourselves. We have put too much faith and trust in humans and other things that will never fulfill the void. When a society rejects God, they will look for someone or something to save them which then gives the institution or social sphere with the more influence, complete power. Racism and war are often times just manifestations and fruit of a skewed worldview. Ideas have consequences. 

Nothing can save a lost, fallen world but the one who brought it into being in the first place: God. The fall of man was when sin entered into the world. This sin that began in the Garden of Eden brought separation between Adam and Eve and them with God. Through Old Testament scriptures God is often times viewed as a God of wrath and judgement but that was also because of disobedience and sin. The idols and sacrifices couldn't cut it, so, he sent His Son to die for our sins. The blood had to be shed to cover over our sins. By His death, the veil and curtain that separated us from the throne of God was torn. We are now a "new covenant" people who now can come into God's presence by His spirit through faith in His Son, Jesus Christ. 

The truth comes, revival happens, then comes redemption and reformation. Start the fire and carry the flame forward. People are hungry from something real and something believable. Nothing penetrates deeper than the truth of Jesus. 

I pray that the Holy Spirit will reveal truth to me so I can recognize things not of God.  

"If you continue in my word, then you are truly disciples of Mine; and you will make known the truth, and the truth will make you free." -John 8:32

Processing and Debriefing

WOW where do I even start?! Thank you God for being a faithful protector who got our team through every step of outreach, and back to the rock in the middle of the pacific, Kona, Hawaii. You are soo GOOD TO ME and it never ceases to prompt me to worship you!! 


From Colombia, to Peru, down to Chile and back again, God has become so many more things to me than I can even begin to imagine. This week of debrief has thus far been a lot of processing and unpacking everything that God has done in ourselves personally and in the nations. The reuniting and rekindling of friendships established during lecture phase and the freak out revelations of God through different ministries and proclaiming the goodness and power of the Holy Spirit. My conclusion, God is on the move and it's SO exciting! The harvest is ripe and the laborers' are few. 


After coming back to America, everything has become so much more of a reality and how much freedom I now walk in and seeing things through a new lens...God's lens. It's crazy to me how leaving the comfort of your own culture and country can give you such a new perspective. Walking away from outreach, that's the biggest lesson I chose to learn. No matter what we were doing, who we were working with, what ministry we were a part of, it is all about having God's heart and God's perspective. Seeing that things and people truly have value, and there is a depth and a story behind everything. I can say that the "kingdom of God" has become more of a reality to me and in the midst of the changes and what was all happening around us God remains the constant and the steady. I had the opportunity of diving into the Word and preaching things He laid on my heart and proclaiming the goodness of God. I chose to move forward in the confidence of who He says He is and bank on His character because it is unchanging. He has become my anchor and foundation that keeps me grounded in the truths and promises of a life that chases after Him. 


In Chile was probably where I had the most personal breakthrough and revelations of things in my own life. In the first days, it wasn't what we thought ministry would look like but in the end, we all learned how to serve and reaped the fruit of it. That is probably the most important lesson that can be learned and I found out, I truly love it. We had the privelege of coming alongside long-term missionaries and lightening their load and blessing them by simply being the hands and feet of Jesus. Also the value of letting God's love be our motivation; changing the motivation of our heart and to invite God into the mundane tasks and just enjoying His presence. It made my heart happy to find Him in the simple things and knowing that in the fullness of His presence will come joy. Serving was a lesson in humility and selflessness and to be first, you must be last. God is also teaching me what it means to walk in integrity and the fear of the Lord. I want to continue to be faithful in the little things and to live with a holy fear over my life in everything I do. God is sooo good and is continuing to reveal and speak things to me as this season is coming to a close but also that He is equipping me and readying my heart and mind for the new chapter on this adventure with Him. We serve a timeless God that is outside of human comprehension and I sometimes don't always know the purpose or reasoning of everything but I have enough confidence to move forward and step out in faith, into the unknown, knowing that He is a good Abba who fulfills all the promises He speaks to us. He will never leave me nor forsake me and I can always run to the loving embrace of my Father. 

"Then you will discern the fear of the LORD 

And discover the knowledge of God. 

 For the LORD gives wisdom; 

From His mouth come knowledge and understanding. 

 He stores up sound wisdom for the upright; 

He is a shield to those who walk in integrity, 

 Guarding the paths of justice, 

And He preserves the way of His godly ones. 

 Then you will discern righteousness and justice 

And equity and every good course. 

 For wisdom will enter your heart 

And knowledge will be pleasant to your soul; 

 Discretion will guard you, 

Understanding will watch over you"

   -Proverbs 2:5-11