me+cat=revelation

As I was sitting at a chair in my dining room the Lord downloaded a revelation to me through my cat, of all things. He was rubbing up against my legs and weaving in and out of both of them and meowing and pawing my leg. I was perplexed and wondered why he always did that, so I just sat there, and stared, and watched the repetitive mannerisms. After awhile, I picked him up and was stroking the top of his head as he began to purr. I noticed he had a huuge bloody scab right below his mouth that was obviously from a cat fight from the previous night. As I ran my finger over the wound, he pulled away and was very resistant. I continued to pet him and hold him so tight and wouldn't let him go and all he could do was fight it. I just wanted to comfort him so he would stop fighting. This was something so simple yet so profound I was able to recognized with a redeemed heart and through spiritual eyes. I felt something in my heart shift as I recognized my cat and I being so similar to me and my walk with God. He gave us his Spirit so we can learn how to abide, to be so close to Him that we are one. To weave in between His legs, to rest in His arms. God placed that desire and longing in our hearts to be in that place with Him, but sometimes we're like my cat who want to go outside on our own and do things our way. To experience the world, to fight with flesh and blood. This results in battle woulds, scars, that only Jesus can heal through His blood on the cross. That only will be restored if we open our hearts and let him into the deepest most hurting places of our lives. Nothing is better than a fresh touch or filling of the Holy Spirit or an affirming word from a Father. That's what my heart beats for, that's what makes me "purr". In this world, it's a battle for the soul. A war raging all around us that's competing for our attention and the affection of our hearts. We must keep focused on what's eternally important, on truth and our hope of glory. We will become what we gaze upon so be fixated and focused on the perfect, 100% God, 100% Man, Jesus Christ. Let nothing else have your affection and attention but that alone. Undivided and wholly devoted. The fire in His eyes is an all-consuming fire, after encountering His love, I am not the same. I begin to be consumed with the things that are on His heart and I am overwhelmed but it's by His power that I can do these things for the kingdom of heaven.

Pure Goodness

My King, my Savior, my Abba, my Lord, my Hope of Glory. Thank you for revelations, for friends, for your voice and the guidance of your Holy Spirit. Teach me obedience, and patience in this season of waiting, and refining. My hearts desire is to carry Your heart, to see Your fingerprints across the globe, to see Your kingdom come and Your will be done, as earth as it is in Heaven. Without you I have nothing, and with nothing I have everything in You. I'm desperate for more of Your presence and how I long to be a part of what You're doing in the hearts and in the nations You breathed life into. I'm thankful that You know my hearts desires and my adventurous spirit was God given so help me to trust You more, Your sovereignty, Your promises, and Your continual faithfulness. To hold fast to Your spoken word and to not rush ahead of Your timing. I'm on Your time clock and Your ways are higher than mine. I will delight in today and everything You've done. I will choose You above all else; Lord remove any selfish ambition or motivation and create in me a pure heart and a steadfast spirit. Open hand, willing heart, lead me, take me where ever you want Jesus, even if it's here. Teach me to be more like you every day. I love you Lord and am thankful for who You are. Your character is a non-negotiable and will never change and to that I will cling all my days. <3

Caught in the Arms of Grace

Grace [greys] -(noun): mercy, pardon, manifestation of favor, especially by a superior 

"God pronounced original grace. The other side of the story is when we, finite fallen humans, head off on our own, ignoring the Giver. This headstrong straying we have called original sin, meaning our freedom to choose the not so good, to turn aside from original grace. Ironically, this freedom is itself the most unique grace given humankind by God, the capacity to choose our own way, which must necessarily entail the possibility of choosing poorly. Because we have not always chosen the most graceful path, we have ended up in some miserable, blind alleys along the way. When we grasp our predicament and call for the help we had previously spurned, amazing grace comes to the rescue."


I am so thankful for God's grace, mercy and the power of the cross. I have been continually receiving revelation of the significance of the blood Jesus shed to cover over all of my iniquities and short comings. The victory is already won and the sins I will commit tomorrow are already taken care of. He is my hope of glory, undeserved, without question, and without condition. God also extends grace to our human comprehension and understanding to behold our Maker and know Him as He is to be known. The truth is, we are all only saved by His grace and though we may see ourselves unworthy, He still longs to be in communion with us. 

The work of the cross was to give us the Holy Spirit to regenerate a spiritual life of apprehending God.

God is here, and there, and there is no place where He is not. No point is nearer to God than any other point. After Jesus died on the cross, the veil was torn so we can now enter into the Holy of Holies with boldness and grace; He is closer than our skin. God is longing to reveal Himself to us in some way or another. I want a revelation of God like Moses had. I want my face to glow with supernatural light because of his encounter with the living God. This pursuit is only successful because of God's grace. I long to have a habit of spiritual response and awareness of the divine Presence and faith is the only thing that will enable this spiritual sense to function. 


Receptivity...response to or desire to have; increased by using or destroyed by neglect. I want God to show me His glory, and desire Him more desperately and earnestly, in touch with the spirit as a reality as much as the physical world. I want to be in communication and respond to God by passionate pursuit of Him every day. I'm thankful that He knows the depths of my heart, my feelings, and He continues to gently love me, and woo me into His presence. The power of your grace and mercy is enough to get me through every day. To count each one a victory with your Spirit beckoning me to You and helping me to persevere. When I think I can figure things out with my human reasoning is when you challenge my trust and obedience. It is confronting to my head because I can only comprehend so much of You God. Your facets are endless, God, give me new perspective, holding fast to your character, and meditating on your wonderful works, and on your glorious splendor and Majesty. You are the One who sustains all things and satisfy the desire of every living thing and those who fear you. 


"You have searched me and you know me, you understand my thoughts from afar, and are intimately acquainted with all my ways. Where can I go from your Spirit or where can I flee from your Presence? You knitted together my most inward parts, my soul knows it is well, and precious are my thoughts to you, O God."   psalm 139