Dreams and Visions

So, last night as the clock ticked over 5 am, I was wide awake and my thoughts were racing. Excitement, fear, wonder, possibilities, and what ifs of leaving to Hawaii. I close my eyes and try to doze back off to sleep. In my light rest is when I dream the most and remember things without much recollection. During this state, I had the most amazing vision. It was me. Standing on the edge of the beach where the ocean meets the sand. I looked out into the abyss and everywhere around me and as far as I could see there was no one. Not a soul. Just me, the water, the sand, and next to me were my two suitcases. Even in my sleep I could feel the intenseness of the emotions I had in this moment. I was captivated by the beauty of God's creation, overwhelmed by His glory, and scared of being alone, fearful of the openness and everything and anything that could possibly happen to me. I couldn't get this out of my head. Finally I had to wake up and journal, pray, read, something to get some clarity.

I never read in the Old Testament very often but for some reason the Holy Spirit prompted me to turn there. Thiese are the verses that I came to and that spoke to me.

"I will put my spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the Lord have spoken and I have done it declares the Lord." --Ezekial 37:14

"But as for me, I am filled with power, with the spirit of the Lord, and with justice and might, to declare to Jacob his transgressions, to Israel his sin."  --Micah 3:8

"I saught the Lord and he answered me, he delivered me from all my fears." --Psalm 34:4

These verses reminded me of the promises God gave us with the Holy Spirit living inside of us as Chrisians. He will settle me, fill me with power and deliver me from all my fears. I sometimes get these thoughts of anxiety and fears about this huge step out and leaving this country but knowing that the Holy Spirit will guide, lead, intercede, speak to me and reveal things removes all these thoughts and emotions and replaces them with truth.

In the book "Illustrated Dictionary of Dream Symbols: A Biblical Guide to Your Dreams and Visions" by Dr. Joe Ibojie...A SUITCASE: on the move. transition. private walk with God;  AN OCEAN: vast amounts of people. I found this ironic because these are both things that reasonate with what I'm going through and the season I'm in. I've never moved away from home in my life, especially half way around the globe. Attending DTS I'm going to meet soo many new people and have such an amazing opportunity to share the love of Jesus to many more people in another country.

Lastly, the sands of the beach. Throughout the summer I've been reading the book "Lady in Waiting" by Jackie Kendall. It has struck a cord with where I'm at. Many single women view themselves as ugly oyster shells lying on the beaches of life, overcome with the trials and problems that come with not being married or in a relationship. Often times comparing themselves to the beautiful seashells around them. I'm learning that God is using these sands of singleness to make me perfect and complete. He's developing pearls of character in my life. The Lord is making me a costly, beautiful pearl for all to admire.

                                           Lady in Waiting
..::it's not about finding the right man, but becoming the right woman::..
         The Lady in Waiting recklessly abandons herself to the
   Lordship of Christ, diligently uses her single days, trusts God with
       unwavering faith, demonstrates virtue in daily life, loves God with undistracted
devotion, stands for physical and emotional purity, lives in security. responds
             to a life of contentment, makes choices based on her convicions,
                      and waits patiently for God to meet her needs.